healthy fears

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released May 20, 2011

All songs written by Juliana Lydell and Tyler Lydell.

Keyboards/Vocals: Juliana Lydell
Drums/Vocals: Tyler Lydell
Violin: Athena Koumis, Shane Kalbach

Produced & Engineered by Ira Skinner at Alley Avenue
Mastered by Joe Johnston at Pus Cavern

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Track Name: Things the Flood Gave Us
Hail at the table, clouds make up our couch
We planned to kill time, but it had a thicker skull than we'd realized
Days close around me like a newborn's skin in daylight
So I hide in my room, pretending I am buried
As a piece of sky

Dig me up, lover, and lay me on your chest
Soon I will seep through your skin, your pulse, your organs
Your bones will hold us tighter than weak arms could

I'm not afraid if you're not afraid
I'm not afraid if you're not

Smoked more than enough to develop a cough
I love to watch you, but enough is enough
'Cause to live, you'll need your mouth, your throat, your lungs
To sleep, I'll need to hear you breathe in and out

I'm not afraid if you're not afraid
I'm not afraid if you're not

Right, right

I'm maybe a little afraid
Still have the same neuroses that used to triturate

I'm maybe a little afraid
But it's not enough to worry
I'm not worried, if you're not
Track Name: Alphonse Mucha
There's a hair in our mouths, I'm a cloud
You're the praying mantis I've been wondering about
Is it just me, or is it sickening how destructive I love to be
When I'm holed up in my house every weekend
'Cause I can't find nothing timeless to do
And if I get above reproach sometime soon, or ever
You know the first thing I'll do is inform you

Can someone pass a note
Write, 'I don't need to cry tonight'
Tell him hello
Tell him I hope his bed doesn't swallow him whole
And I've been eating as much as I said I would
And feeling guilty for feeling good

Eden berry, poison apple, ripe rust
Why'd you have to go and make gods of us

There is one very visceral string
It's pulling me to lie over the sea
I drink rapidly a glass of water and protest weakly
Absentmindedly, I notice there's a man, he's licking the ear of his woman
In the car right next to me
As I realize it's not brave
To be preoccupied with all the minor things in life
Like it's all about to capsize
In fact, it's just vain
To say I'll see you on the other side
In case our eyes still look alike
They sure do in my mind

Eden berry, poison apple, ripe rust
Why'd you have to go and make gods of us
Eden berry, poison apple, ripe rust
Why'd you have to go and make us

With brows this furrowed and fists so faint
I'd like to know
With brows this furrowed and fists so faint
I'd like to know
Track Name: One Plus One...Is Two Ones
Don't pretend you've been worried
You've got a heart-shaped face, but a self-shaped heart
And I won't pretend that I've been careful
'Cause I know that we've both got doubts

At least, I've got doubts big enough to drown you
I've got doubts big enough to swallow you
And I am not opposed to that

The chase, the catch, the court, the ceremony
It's enough to make anyone's stomach turn
How does she know that he's not lying
As mom and dad are crying
How does he know she'll be a faithful bride
Just because she's dressed in white
Well, that can't be right

But I see how she looks into his eyes
How she stands at his side
And how he holds her when they dance for the first time
He says, 'You're the only woman I could ever want'
She says, 'I'm so happy, I can barely breathe'
And they keep dancing
They just keep dancing
It's simple, and it's true, I hope it's true

Well, I have the world on a string
But it's bearing down on me
I'm afraid this hand could never bear a ring
This hand could never bear a ring
I watch the young feast on love
Me and my old, old soul
Spinning their storylines from my cold, marble pedastal

Maybe, someday, someone will help me realize
I've been overthinking it this whole time
And it will come easy, so much more effortlessly
Than I could even imagine right now
Yeah, this is just a phase
I hope

I hope
Track Name: Mandalay
The gate was open, we weren't afraid
You held your breath, I said your name
It was dark, but we saw enough extravagance
Foreign to us

Chandeliers, unfinished rooms
Whispering like ghosts under the moon
By day, anyone would describe us as
Trespassing kids, such disrespect
But the night saw more, and asked us in

We danced in smoke and diamonds
Like wartime lovers from Fitzgerald novels
And our riches bored us, and the world adored us
When I was dancing on your toes in

Mandalay

Footsteps on the stairs
I still don't know if they were real
But we were scared
You led me out
And we've never needed words to talk about

Mandalay

Come back to the bath, and let's lie down
We have always been here

We have always been here
Track Name: Death By Fugu
I found a spiderweb in your mouth
Do you instruct it to not leave me alone
'Cause it does not leave me alone

Do you wish things were different
Do you wish things were different
Do you wish things were different
Like I do

When I wake up, it will be more than tomorrow
And I'll have hands that feel like my own
I'll have hands that feel like my own

Well, do you hate sleeping alone
Do you hate sleeping alone
Do you hate sleeping alone
Like I do
Track Name: My Exodus From the Monastery
Well, it wears me out
Wisdom does not explain itself
It makes a scene and then retreats

I'm wearing Franny's clothes
Catalyzed with a click in my throat
My ribcage has swelled again, old friend

Your bark was charred
Charred
Oh, the negligence of modern warfare
I wrapped my arms around you
I cried aloud
'What have they done to you?'
My darling

I went to you often
In mist, in the mountains
You said I woke you up
Well, you grew branches in my sleeves too
I'd waited thousands of years
(I'd waited thousands of years)
I'd waited thousands of years
(I'd waited thousands of years)
I'd waited thousands

So I won't go pouting now
You will be home soon
Honestly, it's not too long of a wait
Long of a wait
And I'll keep telling myself that

It's not always so easy
It's not always so easy
When I hear the master calling me
And the voices leave me screaming

I won't go crying now
I will be home soon
Honestly, it's not too long of a wait
Long of a wait

No, no, no

His roots will become your roots
Heaven's hands for leaves, oak tree
Is it easy, love? It can't be easy
Have I told you no one's ever been more sorry?
Well, no one's ever been more sorry